SO. I'm not going to pretend like my eating disorder isn't real.
Because...it is. Very, very, very real. This is where I'll update about that portion of my life.
For the first update....
I can't make myself eat in the cafeteria.
I am terrified of it.
I went in there for dinner last night and had a panic attack and left.
I'm eating--don't worry...just, not exactly following my meal plan.
There's only so much you can get from the library and student center cafes.
I need to go to the cafeteria. I need to keep going and going and going so I desensitize myself to it. I can't avoid it forever. wahhh. :\
